Broke The Cleanse…

Well, I broke my cleanse!  I only made it 10 days instead of the 21 I was going for

I have not been in a good space for some reason, which really sabotaged this cleanse.   I was not mentally into this one and felt like I was doing back to back to back to back cleanses!  I also was SO SICK of drinking the drink.  I was only drinking like 20 oz a day, not good.  That was not enough.  Dave and I are talking about doing a different type of cleanse next time.  I’m willing to look into that but I’m waiting until the end of this month or the beginning of March.  I want to mention how afraid I was to tell Dave I went off the cleanse.  I txt him and his reply the next day was, “ok, take it  easy on yourself and we’ll figure things out on Tuesday”.   He knows me and figured I was beating myself up for quitting…he was right, I was!  So I didn’t make the goal of this one.  Not a big deal right?  It’s not always going to be that way. 

 In my last post I put down my workout goals.  My bike ride was 20.5 miles instead of 25 miles.  I didn’t workout on Sunday because I was sick.  I will be working out tonight and seeing Dave tomorrow as usual.

I loved eating my fruit this morning and some carrot juice!  Two of my favorite things!  For lunch I had some cottage cheese with fresh blueberries and some walnuts!  Love this too.  Tonight I can’t wait for a great spinach salad with crabmeat!  I love flavors of food and finding new combinations that make my mouth water and palate happy!

 

Recent Workouts…

I sure have gotten back into the routine of working out!  It’s been killing me, haha!!   I’ve been seeing Dave, my trainer, on a regular basis again – twice a week.  He’s really been kicking my butt!  During this cleanse I have zero inflammation to my knees so he’s having me  do more walk/runs!  My legs are sooo sore.    My rest times between cardio and weights are less now too and he closely watches the time.  Sweat is pouring off by the end of the hour!  I used to get grossed out by all the sweat that literally pours off but now it’s almost like a badge of honor!  Does anyone else feel that way?  In fact sometimes I gauge my workouts by how sweaty I can get. 

I must confess I was a big baby and complainer this week with Dave.  Each time I left dripping in sweat.  My mental status is not in a good place now.  I clearly don’t see the big picture this week.  It plays with my head when I work out doing a lot of cardio and don’t see the results I want on the scale!!!    I can’t believe how much it brought me down yesterday.  This is why I don’t own a scale and am weighed by Dave only.  I’m clearly still unable to use it as just a tool.  It affects my mood in a negative way! 

My planned workouts for the next several days looks like this:

Today (Friday) – DAY OFF!!! 

Saturday – 25 mile Bike Ride (all flat)

Sunday – Gym, Treadmill Walk/Runs for 1 hr and some weight training

Monday – Gym, Treadmill Walk/Runs

Tuesday – Workout with Dave

Wedneday – ???

Thursday – Workout with Dave

 

It’s Time For Another Cleanse….

I’m cleansing again for another few weeks.  (The Master Clease) This one will help me get through this plateau I’m on.  I’m at the weight now I was for at least 5 years or so.  My trainer and I don’t want to lose the momentum in the weight loss so here we go again!  I’m also hoping this one will bring me down a solid 12 to 15lbs so I can really start to run more during my cardio work outs.  I want my knees to be back to normal soon.  I wonder how much more weight has to come off for that?  Or if they will ever be back to normal where I can hike again, run again, have agility to play tennis better and SO much more! 

My last cleanse was more of an emotional detox then anything else.   I was able to cleanse a lot my emotional relationship attachments.   I’m still working the relationship I have with food too.   Every time I do a cleanse I learn more and more.  You’d think that wouldn’t be true since I’m not eating solid food on a cleanse.   However, when I’m not eating I have to walk through all of what life brings me and not use food to cope or celebrate.

I find it interesting how my close friends, co-workers or even strangers react when I tell them I’m on a cleanse.  I have a few friends who get mad because our plans can’t revolve around food.  I realize food is a big part of the way society celebrates and seems to be the focus of fellowship with each other.  But perhaps that’s why American’s are the biggest we’ve ever been!!  Everything revolves around food.  I’m learning to look at food as nutrition more and more.  I don’t know if I’ll be able to look at it 100% that way because one of my favorite hobbies and creative outlets is cooking.  The Food Network ROCKS!!!  I know if I had the thought of becoming a chef when I was a kid, I’d be doing that today professionally!  That’s how much I love flavor combinations and love tasting really yummy foods. 

With that thought, I love photography too!  Perhaps I can combine my two loves someday and write a healthy cookbook and take all the photo’s for it too! 

Ok, back to cleansing…. Here’s a list of 17 benefits from cleansing that I’ve seen and experienced:

1. Zero Inflammation in my body (especially my knees)
2. Very Soft Skin
3. Sleeping much better
4. Blood Sugar Lvls are within normal range (I’m a diabetic)
5. Great way to start a healthier routine and develop better eating habits
6. Weight Loss
7. Eliminating Unhealthy Cravings for Healthier Ones
8. Feeling So Clean Inside
9. Total Detoxification of the Body
10. Removes Heavy Metals
11. Immune System Becomes Stronger because it Cleanses Impurities like Bacteria, Parasites, Pollution, Viruses, Fungi & Toxins
12. Cleanses Vital Organs such as the Liver, Colon, Urinary Tract, Skin Pores, Sweat Glands to allow them or do their functions better
13. Energy Levels and Stamina are Higher
14. Aides in the Fight Against Additions (for me food)
15. Detoxing of Emotions
16. Spiritual Fasting
17. Brain Chemistry (improved memory and my thoughts become crystal clear)

 

Poster Child…

Well, it’s official!  I’m now a “poster child” for my trainer’s business.  My before and after pics flash first thing.   To see it, click on this link.  http://www.truhealthandwellness.com

Hopefully by the end of the year a third pic will be up.  The last one showing a total of 165 lbs lost!

Until then, I have another 65 pounds to go.  The pressure is ON!  It’s one thing writing an anonymous blog; it’s another to be out there in front of everyone with your name on it! 

I’m ready to tackle this with the help of Dave, my online friends, my close friends, my co-workers and most of all My God!

 

Zero Motivation vs. Zero Guilt

I had ZERO motivation for doing any cardio last night!!  I was having an emotional day and wanted to curl up in my warm bed upon arriving home from work!!!  That sounded really good to me.  I even posted on my Facebook status, “Warm Bed or Treadmill?”  I loved the responses.  Half said the warm bed and the other half said both with treadmill being first! 

I changed into my workout clothes as soon as I got home.  Then I played around on the computer for almost an hour.  I kept thinking I promised my trainer Dave that I would do cardio on my own 4 times last week and THIS week.  I only did 3 last week.   I need to step up my “on my own” working out again.  I then passed my mirror and saw my ever shrinking belly (that is still there, just smaller) and thought…I have to workout for that to go away.  My routine and motivation for any cardio in the last 3 months have gone down the tubes….completely!! 

I’ve learned that consistency is more important than what you do or how long you do it!  Exercising on a consistent basis forms a habit.   Someday it will not be thought of as a chore but rather a lifestyle.  Most of the time, it’s still a chore at this point.  Sometimes it’s not..YEAH!!!

I got my butt downstairs to the fitness center at my apt complex and got on the treadmill for 40 mins with an incline of 11 at a  speed of 3.2!  I then sat in the sauna room for 25 mins.  I felt better for doing it.  When I got back in it was to bed!  I felt ZERO guilt laying in bed the rest of the evening. 

Sometimes the motivation is just not there.   Sometimes you have to just do it anyway.  Did I feel better after?  Physically, not really but mentally, 100% YES because I did it anyway!  That’s why I’ve lost 100 lbs so far.  Doing it anyway when I DID NOT FEEL LIKE DOING IT!!

What keeps you going when you don’t want to?  What are your stumbling blocks to make this health journey a lifestyle?

 

Emotional Day Today

I really hate when I’m feeling bummed and low when everything around me is going fine!  I’ve got a secure job for the next 1 to 3 years, I’ve lost 100 lbs, I reconciled my relationship with my dad a few weeks ago, saw my family in Virginia, have good friends who love me, I’ve been on two new dates already this year, and so on and so on…

I don’t always handle my emotions in the right way especially when I’m feeling down and don’t think I “should”.  I’m always scared of getting into the danger zone of getting depressed.  I feel hungry when I’m emotional and have a hard time not overeating!  How do you handle your emotions?

Emotions  are funny little things that can get in the way.  

Emotions are temporary and can change at a moments notice.

Emotions cloud you’re perception of things close and far away.

Emotions can overwhelm you physically & emotionally.

Emotions can drive bad decisions if you let them.

Emotions can give you the drive you need to make good decisions.

Emotions can be handled with care or can become completely inappropriate.

Emotions can be silly and fun.

Emotions can be quiet or loud.

Emotions can make you act with sadness, with anger, with jealously, etc….

Emotions can drain you or give you energy.

Emotions can make me hungry or not want to ever eat again!

Emotions can _______________________.

Fill in the blank for you…